Actions, Identity, and Worth

Good morning, Sir.

I had a realization yesterday, and I wanted to write about it in the hopes that it will help you understand me a little better, and that it will help me remember it.

Service is action. It is not who I am. It does not define my worth.

I wrote once before about how I'm trying to serve for you, not for myself. This is what it boils down to. When in serving you for myself, I'm trying to increase my worth. I'm trying to be better. But you've made it clear over and over. You don't love me for what I do, but for who I am. Service is what I do to show you I love you. It is not my love. It is not me.

I'm going to try to remember this. It's difficult. This warped way of thinking has been a part of my life since I was a little kid. But I'm learning.

I love you, Sir.