Your Fantasy

Good morning!

Just catching up on some of your messages, and I noticed you brought up the fantasy of having a dinner party where your girl serves you and then becomes dessert. I wanted to let you know, that one is actually pretty important to me. That's one you shared with me a long time ago, when we were first dating. Looking back, I think it was how you gauged my interest in BDSM. My reaction was anxiety. I didn't know you well, I was still learning to trust you, and I didn't feel in control of my relationship with you. But at the same time, I was falling for you. So this fantasy of your is tied to that time in my life, for me.

I confess, hearing you talk about it with another girl, even one you will almost certainly never meet, brought up a similar anxiety. I wanted to claim that fantasy as mine. But it isn't mine. It's yours. And then I realized, if you ever make that fantasy a reality, I DO want to be involved. But it doesn't actually matter to me what capacity I'm involved in. Maybe there's two slaves. Maybe I'm a guest, or cohost with you. Maybe you're really mean and tie me in a corner and don't let me play. Doesn't matter. I don't have to be the center of your fantasy. I just want to be involved in your life. I want to be there to see your face as you watch this fantasy play out. I want to see your happiness, your lust, your fulfillment. That's the part I'm jealous of. The rest doesn't matter.

I love you very very much.

On a related note, I am interested in group scenes, particularly those involving consensual non-consent. It would probably take some work before I'd be ready to do it without having a panic attack. But I've often fantasized about being tied to a bed and blindfolded and having people come in and fuck me and leave, or going to a play party and being used by multiple people at once, or even borrowed your service fantasy on occasion :)